10 things

I decided to do a weekly post about 10 things. The 10 things can be anything really. 10 things I'm working on right now or 10 things I love right now. You get the point. So here we go....


Ten Random Things

1. My son misses me.
Ever since we got sick and a big change in our lives happened ( i don't feel comfortable sharing this change yet) we have been so busy and so out of sorts that I have not been spending as much quality time with him as I should be. He's the reason why I decided to stay home. So I could spend as much time with him as possible. I have to work on getting back to a place that feels good to both of us.

2. Spring.
Spring is slowly starting to peak its way in and I am so excited! It was warm enough for us to go to the park today and I took notice of all the little flowers starting to bloom and how the birds were chirping and how clear and blue the sky was.

3. Changing eating habits is hard.
For the past three years we have been slowly changing our eating habits. But recently we have decided that we are going to do the GAPS diet for 6 months and see how it goes. I think my family could use some healing in the gut and certain recent events are telling me it's time. I am scared and nervous. It's a very strict diet and I am scared of failing. But the three of us will be on it and we will be each others support system and we won't know how it goes until we try. This week is the last week that we will eat freely and we start next week. So we have been enjoying little treats here and there like Girl Scout cookies and Pizza. We will really miss pizza. But so much good will come out of going on the GAPS diet and that is what has to stick with me. Nothing tastes as good as healthy feels. That will me our mantra. Wish us luck!

4. I really miss being creative
I have gotten so lazy about doing projects and being creative at least a few times a week. It's part of who I am but it has fallen behind on my to do list. Now it's more like once every few months. So sad! So I am going to try and start creating and crafting at least once a week. Hopefully it sticks and becomes habit again!

5. I am obsessed with talented human beings
I really love to find new raw talent. be it photographers or singers or writers. i love how unfiltered they are at the beginning. before anything else has touched them. before fame has kicked in. it's so beautiful. i will sit there for hours looking at their pictures or hearing them sing. it makes me happy and inspires me too!

6. Lonely
I really need some mama friends man! It would be so nice to be a part of a play group or something. Dom and I get really lonely sometimes. and especially since we are planning on unschooling with dom we need to build some sort of community. But we haven't had much luck. it's hard trying to start up conversations with strangers and i get shy a lot of the time and can't seem to build up the nerve to meet other moms. i feel kind of hopeless about it sometimes and it makes me sad. i guess i have to try harder and see what happens.

7. How much to share
this blogging thing is new to me and i struggle at times as too how much i should share on here. i tend to be very private about my personal life unless i know you really really well and trust in you. so it will be interesting to see what happens here in this little light.

8. I want to do stuff
lately i have been thinking about nothing but doing stuff. i want to take dom ice skating and bowling and to different museums. and i want us to travel as a family and have different experiences. i also can not wait to start hiking and biking this spring. there's so much to do out there in the world and i want to take advantage of that. I encourage you all to do the same thing!

9. Not sleeping sucks
I have always been SUCH a night owl. it's my nature. but having a child doesn't exactly work well with that. so for the past 3 years i have been TIRED. I will go to sleep anywhere between 2 and 5 in the morning and have to wake up with dom between 7 and 9. I am always so so tired. and that's no way to live. but i keep doing it. it's been a hard habit to kick. let's just say i am totally losing at the sleeping game.

10. Get out of my head.
A huge challenge for me has been to get out of my head. to just stop thinking and just be in the NOW. I have to constantly remind myself. my mind just loves to chatter away all day and all night. NOT GOOD. I want to be present in my life not consumed by foggy mind chatter. Life is about the right now, not the tomorrow or the yesterday. life is not meant for worries. it's suppose to be FUN! i want my life to be fun and peaceful and worry free. If i can do that i think i will have gained a great gift. Ill let you know when i get there.

Okay that's all i have for now. See you soon! and until then, many wishes of light love and peace!