First Post

I am very nervous about this post considering it is the first post on my blog that I have ever written. Also this is the first blog I have ever had, sooooo very intimidating. Considering that I am new to this and you are all new to me, I figure I should tell you a little bit about myself. Before I do that though I would like to say my sorries now for any spelling errors or grammar errors you may encounter in the world of Amanda's blog, it happens so bare with me.

I grew up in California and still live here, close to the San Fernando Valley. I was born in the United States but my mom is from Mexico, Baja to be precise and my dad is from El Salvador. Now if you know anything about these two countries you would know that they do not get along. So when ever anyone asks me where my parents are from they usually look at me in shock, since that duo is  rare. I guess that's why I decided to start there. The language is the same but the cultures are some what different. Who am I kidding! They are very different, but it made an interesting childhood to say the least. I have not done very much traveling though I would love to some day. I've been to Vegas, some parts of Mexico, but that's pretty much it. I've never even been on a plane, I am dying to go on a plane, don't know why, I just am. I have one brother who is almost eight years younger than me. I got to see both sides, I was an only child for quite some time and yet experienced what it was to have a sibling as well. Pretty cool. We were not very close as kids but now that he is in his late teens and I'm in my mid twenties it's not so bad.

Now that you know a little about my background I'll tell you more about me ME. I have changed a lot in the past few years. Becoming a mom definitely had something to do with that. I use to be a huge dweller of the past. Just a dweller in general, very woe is me too. Life has been tough on me in the sense that I have had a hard time dealing with people. Not socially, I am actually very social, I love people, I love to know peoples stories, who they are, that sort of thing. But I am a very giving person, a very loving person, a very trusting person, a very loyal person,and a very honest person. And it has been taken advantage of many many times. Not very many people are all of those things. I am not saying I'm perfect here or anything, far from it! But I have encountered too much of the opposite of this stuff in my life, it had me sad for a long time. But now I have come to realize that this is who I AM and that I like that about myself. And that everyone is different and I have to accept people for who they are. Of course that doesn't mean people get to step all over me, not at all, but I just came to understand that I have to deal with things in a compassionate and loving way instead of in a victimizing way. It's up to me how i chose to deal with any given situation and it's up to me how those situations will make me feel. It's not always easy but that's where I am right now in my life.

What's funny is that I have a big heart but also a very strong personality. I am also a very "facey" person, as i like to call it. Which means my face is constantly expressing the thoughts I have in my mind. I am not good at hiding my emotions. I have a hard time with patience, anger, and I am also very stubborn in my ways at times. But I am also extremely open minded to new ideas and new ways of thinking, what can I say it's the Aquarius in me! So as you can see I am a very confused person, I don't know which way to go or be, I guess I'm a little bit of everything.

I have a beautiful little boy who is 19 months old. On here we shall call him Nooch, it's one of his nick names, and a wonderful partner who we shall call Deems, another nick name. They are my life! But so are my family and friends. I have no favies, I love them all so much! Being 25 and having a small child has not been easy, let me tell you, i don't think it's easy at any age, but it is so amazing and it has flipped my life upside down! But in such a good way! We have become greener in our home because of Nooch, we cuss less, eat right, and just try to live pure lives in general due to this incredible child! My son and my partner have been the ultimate gift. We have learned to "need" less since we live on a budget due to the fact that I stopped working and going to school to become a stay at home mom, best job EVER! Hardest job ever but best anyway. You really start to realize there's not much you need, so much of it is wants. We do have a dream to own a house and some land some time in the future, so we can have our own garden and have lots of animals. That would be awesome! But for now we are where we are and I am enjoying every step of the way.

Now to end this you may be wondering why I chose to call this blog searching for Unicorns. Well..........I LOVE UNICORNS, and I really do think that they exist. I believe that when you truly believe in something with all your heart how can it not exist? So here is my search for the ever gentle, magical Unicorn, who to me symbolizes peace, love, happiness, and the unity of all loving things. So when I do finally get to SEE a unicorn it will be in a time when the world is right again, that's when they will come out of hiding. Until then I will keep on looking and keep on hoping, even for a quick glance of a beautiful Unicorn. And through this blog I hope to connect with others who want a better world for our children, a more loving and compassionate place for Unicorns to live.